Put the laptop in my bedroom thinking that I will write more but actually I am tired and cannot remmeber what I wanted to write about.

Discussed with Lynx and Jess about why the Stamford arts centre, and not CCA on another day, and I wonder if I’m too insistent on it, and if I am, then for the right reasons. There’s a sense of formality to things I suppose, when held at the SAC. In the past days people have been asking me what is it that I had envision and what’s the artistic concept whatever, and I realise that it is indeed up to me to decide, for I have a more wholistic overview. Am I being authoritarian? Is it wrong?

It’s convenient not to be democratic. but the responsibility is also pretty heavy to bear sometimes.

If I can be autocratic about making what happen where then why do I not be autocratic about other things - like what people are studying and what they make out of the month-long process. Is because I am dedicated to making this meet up happen and I want to set the terms for doing so.

Who do I engage personally but who do I not engage personally? I think I engage the people who lend me good vibes. and then we just ride on each others’.

I’m enjoying the evening sessions because it’s quite constructive for an otherwise lazy time. Especially on Sunday if Jess didn’t come down to Bugis then I wouldn’t have gone over to do some work at least for two hours. But my problem is I don’t know what time to eat dinner. If only the library was open until 10 that will be perfect.